Gettin Ready

I've been thinking lately.

Dangerous I know,

But still, I have.

I was thinking about Emma.

Emma wakes up early in the morning. She wants a bottle and then she will fall back to sleep for another couple hours.

I hear her stirring.

I hear her start to whimper.

She starts to cry with this pathetic little desperate cry. Like no one can hear her, like no one cares.

But you see I do hear. Almost as soon as I hear her stirring, I get up and start getting ready her bottle.

Sometimes, I have to wash one out.

I have to prepare the bottle, and wait for it it to heat up. It takes time to get it ready.

While I am in the kitchen getting things ready, it doesn't mean that I don't hear her.  I do hear her. I want to tell her that it will be ok. That I am working on it. That I am coming, that I am just getting it ready, but b/c she is whining and crying she isn't able to hear my voice.

I wonder if that is how God is. He hears us.

He hears us when we start to whimper.

He hears us when we wail and moan before him.

I wonder what He is trying to speak over us. What we aren't hearing b/c we aren't still and quiet. What we miss when we are crying our desperate little cry, that cry like no one can hear us and like no one cares.

So many of my dear friends are walking through tough times.

 real trials.

Trials where the only one that can bring help is God himself.

My heart aches for them. truly. I spent so much time through out the day praying for Gods intervention.


I know the burden that can be so heavy at times that you feel like you can barely stand under the pressure. Dear one, cry to Jesus. HE is big enough, strong enough to carry the weight of it.

With Emma once the bottle is done, then I go to her. I scoop her up, I sing songs and words of comfort and love over her. Once she is calm, once she is ready, then I can give her her bottle. The thing her heart has desired.

Yes, I wonder if that is how God is.

I think He desires us to be still. And when we aren't, he will come and pick us up, he will sing songs of comfort and love over us.

How?? I can't really explain. Other then a stillness in my soul, and quietness in my heart.

And once we are calm, once we are still, then He will give us what our soul longs for.

Whether it's rest, or healing, or peace, whatever it is, God in his goodness will give it.

Sometimes He's in the kitchen....gettin ready

Sometimes He's picking us up and sing songs over us

And sometimes.....He is pouring out his blessing.

His blessing to me this morning:

A quietness of the soul. A KNOWING that he was speaking to me.

I read Joel 2 this morning. What beautiful verses.

Joel 2:19 - The Lord replied to them: I am sending you grain, new wine and olive oil, enough to satisfy you fully; never again will I make you an object of scorn to the nations.

21 - Surely he has done great things! Do not be afraid, land of Judah; be glad and rejoice. Surely the Lord has done great things!

25a - I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten

26 - you will have plenty to eat, until you are full. And you will praise the Lord your God, who has worked wonders for you; never again will my people be shamed.

Things I KNOW about God....

Psalm 89:9~ Thou rulest the raging of the sea: when the waves thereof arise, thou stillest them.

What joy I have in knowing that the Lord stills the raging storm in our hearts and minds.

Psalm 91

1 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

Dwelleth~to sit in quiet and remain there....

Lord, help me to always dwell in your presence. May nothing ever happen that would cause me to turn away from you. Be always my refuge, especially when my waters arise and are raging. Hold me continually under the shadow of your wings.

2 I will say of the LORD, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust .

Fortress~a place of exceptional security...

Be my fortress Lord. My strong tower, the One I lean on and run to.

3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.
4 He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.

One thing I love in life is to be curled up under a warm blanket. Especially on a cold night. I get such a sense of warmth and peace. Imagine how much greater warmth and peace there is being cover under his feathers. Being protected by his wings.

5 Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;
6 Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.
7 A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.
8 Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.
9 Because thou hast made the LORD, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;
10 There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.
11 For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.
12 They shall bear thee up in their hands, lest thou dash thy foot against a stone.

Wow!! He shall give his angels charge over me. They will bear me in their hands, lest I dash my foot against a stone.

13 Thou shalt tread upon the lion and adder: the young lion and the dragon shalt thou trample under feet.
14 Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high , because he hath known my name.
15 He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation.

I think this chapter might just be one of my favorite in the whole Bible.

Last week was a very emotional week for me, for reasons I won't discuss. There is no denying that bad things will happen in life. There is no denying that sad things will happen. That things we just don't understand will happen. There will be times that we are just. so. disappointed.

1 thing I KNOW.....

That through my disappointment,

Through my hurt.

Through my heartache.

God is still faithful.

God has been wrapping his faithfulness around me lately.

He has put a song in my heart.

He has really impressed upon me 2 songs

Verse 3 of Great is thy faithfulness.....

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow
Blessing all mine with ten thousand besides

Great is thy faithfulness
great is thy faithfulness
morning by morning new mercies I see
All I have needed thy hand hath provided
Great is thy faithfulness Lord unto me.

And verse 2 of a song called God's been Good

Times replay and I can see I've cried some bitter tears
But I felt his arms around me as I faced my greatest fears.
You see I've had my gains and losses
and I've known more joy then hurt
as his grace rolled down around me undeserved.

God has been my father, my saviour and my friend.
His love was my beginning and his love will be my end.
I could spend forever trying to tell you everything He is,
But the best way I can say it is this...

God's been good in my life. I feel blessed beyond my wildest dream
when I go to sleep each night
and though I've had my share of hard times
I wouldn't change them if I could
cause through it all, God's been good.

What a friend we have in Jesus. He will all our burdens bear. Have you trials or temptations, take it to the Lord in prayer.

Psalm 94:17-19

~ unless the Lord had been my help, my soul had almost dwelt in silence. When I said, my foot slippeth; thy mercy O Lord held me up. In the multitude of my thoughts within me thy comforts delight my soul.

What a beautiful verse.

Have your thoughts ever consumed you? Have you ever just. wanted. to. stop. thinking?!?!

Man have I been there. I have been so thankful for His comforts. His little graces that He gives me on a daily basis.

Lord, thank you for wiping away tears, thank you for your daily strength, for your love and your mercy.

Can you say that your cup runneth over today? Sometimes our cup gets just so heavy to carry. But rest in the knowledge that your cup is secure. Rest in the fact that He. Is. GOD. That is grace is sufficient. That His ways are not your ways. But His ways are best. Rest in the fact that in the multitude of your thoughts, his comforts will delight your soul. They did mine.

My friend Heather wrote this post today and it summed up my thoughts and feelings exactly.

The song is the 2nd one on my playlist.

Does Jesus Care?? Oh, yes he cares.

This week, we have walked through fire. I don't want to go into detail, but we have had a pretty heavy load to carry this week.

I knew that there was nothing I could do or say to take this problem away, we just had to pray. So on my knees I went. God was the only one who could provide.

How many times have you sat, completely helpless, completely broken, completely and utterly emotionally spent? It's not a fun place to be. I was there.

I have been praying that God would really work on my heart, that he would mold me and make me into what he wants. Well......be careful what you pray for. :)

God is working. I can feel his hands molding and shaping me into what he wants be to me. It isn't an easy thing to go through. It's emotional....I have never cried this much. I keep saying......I'm not a crier!! Yet, there I sit, bawling like a baby. I guess I would rather be emotional and be in God's hands, then in charge of my emotions and walking alone. It's also humbling. To know that you have no answer to give, no end in sight. To know that you need help, to know that you need.

2 Corinthians 9:15~Thanks be unto God for his unspeakable gift

Last night, we had a resolution to our problem. To those involved. Thank you. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you. We were given another UnSpEaKabLe GiFt.

1 Peter 5:7"Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you."

2 Cor, 6:10 ~ As sorrowful, yet alway rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, and yet possessing all things.

I read this verse this morning. And although things seemed so dark, and so hard. I still have something to rejoice about. I have God on my side, and with him all things are possible. Even those things that we think that there is no hope in. Hard things happen in our lives to strengthen us, to grow us. I pray for a receptive heart, and a heart that will learn from it.

Last night at church, we sang the song Does Jesus care. I lost it. All I could do was sit and let the words wash over my soul. Hunny saw that I was upset, and just sat there with his arm around me, comforting me.

Does Jesus care when my heart is pained
Too deeply for mirth or song,
As the burdens press, and the cares distress
And the way grows weary and long?

Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares,
His heart is touched with my grief;
When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
I know my Savior cares.

Does Jesus care when my way is dark
With a nameless dread and fear?
As the daylight fades into deep night shades,
Does He care enough to be near?

Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares,
His heart is touched with my grief;
When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
I know my Savior cares.

Does Jesus care when I've tried and failed
To resist some temptation strong;
When for my deep grief there is no relief,
Though my tears flow all the night long?

Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares,
His heart is touched with my grief;
When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
I know my Savior cares.

Does Jesus care when I've said "goodbye"
To the dearest on earth to me,
And my sad heart aches till it nearly breaks,
Is it aught to Him? Does He see?

Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares,
His heart is touched with my grief;
When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
I know my Savior cares.

Ephesians 3:20 ~ Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us.



What an amazing verse. I've said it before, and I'll say it again. Exceeding Abundantly above all that we can even THINK!!!

I hesitated to even post this. To be so open with this. But I decided to post this. Because this blog is for me. It's for me to look back on and remember my life. This is part of my life, and I want to remember what God has done for us. I want you to know that he loves you, and he wants only the best for you. And yes, he cares for you as well.

Field of Grace

Clouds are disappearing, sky's are turning blue,
only just a while ago I told him I was through,
He did not rebuke me, but with arms of strong embrace,
picked me up and carried me into a field of grace

Where all is quiet, leaning on his grace,
He pulled me from a stormy sea to a place where I could rest.
Told me I was loved, told me I was safe
and I could stay till healing came in this holy field of grace.

Had to pass through dessert, had to face strong wind,
But I don't dread them all that much, I know he'll come again.
Lead me to still waters, there he'll let me stay,
till my soul has been restored in his healing field of grace.

Where all is quiet, leaning on his grace,
he pulled me from a stormy sea to a place to where I could rest
Told me I was loved, told me I was safe
and I could stay till healing came in this holy field of grace,
told me I was loved, I was safe,
and I could stay till healing came in this holy field of grace.

This is by far my favorite song these days. I wish that I could find it for you so you could actually listen to it, but I can't find an audio of it anywhere on the web. But I wanted to at least write down the lyrics.

My favorite line in the whole song is....and I could stay till healing came in this holy field of grace.