fever

Well, we are slowly inching our way toward spring break. 2 more days, and we are free for a week. I do have to work 1 morning, but I can totally handle that. I really think that #1 is ready for a break in particular. I am really hoping for a nice week weather wise. I want to be outside!

Nonsense

Well, I am very thankful for hubby, I just have to say. He started working on our laundry last night. The mountain of laundry that has been growing all week, and we are finally starting to tackle it.
Today is Wednesday. And I am exhausted. I don't think we are going to go to church tonight. I need a night to do nothing except laundry. I am going to a lady's retreat this weekend and I need to leave w/ my house in order. If I don't, then I won't come home to a clean house.
This is the 1st day of spring. My #1 is very excited about it also. She thinks that it will no longer be cold outside. I didn't want to break her heart and tell her it will still be cold. But anyway, she walked into my classroom today and started singing a Happy Spring song. It was really cute. But I have to admit, I am really excited about spring this year. It must be b/c I am working now.

Finally

I have been walking for the past 4 days. My goal is to walk 6 days a week. For at least an hour. I have walked app. 10 miles. ( That may be way off, but that is my guess) I finally feel that I am doing something good for myself. I also have not made any more brownies, and am trying to not eat sweets at bed time. I want to do this thing 1 step at a time so it isn't such a huge shock to my system. Hopefully I will see something good coming from this. I wouldn't call it a diet that I am on, I am just trying to watch my weight. Just thought I should give an update. Not that anyone cares.

A good day

So this morning when I woke up, I really did not want to get up and get going. It took all that I had to get up start my day. And really the only thing that got me going was that I didn't want to be like my mother. My mother would have stayed in bed and called in sick to work. So I went. And it has turned out to be actually a good day. I went to work, and then as I was picking up my son from the sitters, and I sat down, and 1 thing led to the other and here it is 5 o'clock and I am still here. Hubby had to come over and fix their faucet, and here I sit. No laundry done, no dishes done, no vacuuming done. But I have had a good day. I have laughed, and just had a nice time visiting w/ my friend. We have definitely gotten things accomplished though. I will have a busy night tonight working at home.

I have a need

So I am just going to say it. I need romance. I am not just talking sex here. I am talking holding hands, that butterfly feeling, can't wait to see you kind of thing. I need that. I am totally in love w/ my husband. But I need to know that he thinks that I am pretty, that he is totally in love w/ me. I want flowers and dates, I want silly little notes, and late night conversations. I need it.

A few min

The kids looking at the wind tunnel.












Tancy trying to figure out how this works. She never did get it.










The girls in the play house.












The boys playing bank. They played FOREVER at this. They got to see how the drive up worked. They thought is was great!

Me climbing up the inside of the twirly stairs!

I haven't figured out how really get this blog to look the way that I want. So bear w/ me as I work w/ it. These are picts. of our trip to the Discovery Center.

Well, I have a few minutes to myself. Right now the only thing that I am listening to is the hum of the fish tank, and it is music to my ears! I have had a very busy week this week. Right now, hubby and #2 are at the bank, and #1 is sleeping on the couch, the poor thing is just tuckered out after this week. We have been the the Y, the discovery center, I have been to Chicago and Crystal Lake on seperate nights. We have played outside for 2 days after work. Again, I say it has been crazy. You can tell by my house also. I have tried to keep up on my laundry, but it is impossible. If you have known me any length of time, you will know that my house is a huge stress for me. I love to have it nice and orderly, but getting it to stay that way, is nearly impossible for me. Life gets busy, and the house gets put on the back burner. I honestly don't know how people do it. Have perfect houses. God didn't make me that way, so I just have to learn to live with it.

God also didn't make me skinny. This has been another stresser for me. My weight. And I keep making the brownies, and buying the chips. It is really getting out of control. I want to join the YMCA. We went on a field trip there yesterday, and it was amazing. The kids enjoyed it so much. So today, I took my kids back w/ a lady that I work w/ and I went on a tour of the place and saw all what it has to offer. I want to go sign up today. I think that it would be the thing that I need to get back in shape. I think that I need a big boost to get me motivated, and then I can drop some weight. I will not be happy w/ myself come summer and I still look like this. I am so depressed w/ how I look and feel. I want to feel better about myself. Enough griping. Hopefully next week, we will have the funds to be able to join.

Back to the field trip. We went to the Y for this fieldtrip. And we just played in this little play area, kinda like a big McDonalds play area. And it was the 1st time that I actually got up in the tunnels and just acted like a kid, and had fun w/ the kids. The sad part was that I wasn't having fun and being a kid w/ my kids. It was someone elses kids. It made me realize that I need to have fun w/ my kids. My kids need to see me enjoying them. I need to make an effort more to enjoy them. So many times, I get in this mood where I get frustrated w/ there silliness, and it puts such a bad taste in our outing. ( That I learned f/ my mother, I am SURE of it, I don't remember her having fun doing anything w/ us) Anyway, so when I took the kids to the discovery center, I had a good time w/ the kids. It was so much fun, just to be there w/ them. I even climbed the INSIDE of the twirly staircase. I seriously didn't think I would fit!

Well, tonight, I want to get the house clean. ALthough, I can guarantee that hubby won't help me tonight. I would rather do it tonight, and get it over w/ though, but I know that I will need his help.

We are going bowling tomorrow night w/ our sunday school class. That should be a lot of fun. Although I do NOT like to bowl, but I will give 1 for the team.

a bunch of nothing

Wow, it has been a couple days. We have been so busy lately. It has been so nice here. Yesterday is was 75! We spent the whole afternoon outside! My kids were covered in mud from head to toe! But boy were they happy. (Daddy gave them a bath and that made Mommy happy)
Today though it was only in the 50's but it's okay w/ me. I know that spring and warmer weather is coming. School will be over soon, and that makes me even happier.
I got to drive into Midway Airport today and see my friend. I didn't think that I would be able to go for a min. there. Hubby came down w/ the flu, and I was afraid that I would need to stay home, but he told me to go, so I left. Guilt and all, I felt like such a terrible wife leaving him like that. But he only had to deal w/ the kids for about an hour. Thanks so much to my dear friend Tancy and my MIL. They stepped in and watched the kids so I was able to still go. My friend (Erica) and I got to sit and eat dinner and just catch up. It was so nice. I wish that we could do it more often. She is moving cross country soon and she will be closer to me, so hopefully we can take a little family vaca, and go visit them once they get settled. That would be so cool.
I have come to the conclusion that I think that I never have anything to write, but then as soon as I lay my head down on my pillow, I think of all kinds of things to write. I tell myself.....Oh, I have to write about that.......and the next time I have time to write my thoughts are completely out the window. I can just hear my friends tell me.....well, write it down you idiot.....well, I think that is easier said then done. So here I sit, wanting to write, but not really having anything to write about. So I guess I will go veg out in front of the tv.
I will say though that I got a walk in yesterday and it was WONDERFUL.

The reason

So I have been thinking about why I haven't told anyone about my blog. I was asked the other day, when I did tell people about it, why I didn't tell them earlier, and I really didn't have an answer for them. Well, I think that I wanted to see if knowing people were reading my blog would make a difference in how I wrote. I have come to the conclusion that it doesn't matter. I will write what I want to write. So, please don't be offended.

Yes, Yes, I did

Okay, so many people out there may think that this is ridiculous, BUT I DON'T CARE!!! I think that she looks absolutely adorable. She looks WAY better in person BTW!

Well

Hubby got a call in for a job this week. It is only a short time call but it will bring in a lot of money in a short amount of time. So that is a blessing. He is going to work there w/ a buddy of his. He was talking w/ his buddy about traveling around to all these plants and doing this type of work. If he were to decide to travel, it would be days maybe weeks w/out seeing his family. And he said that he didn't really want to travel. That he didn't want to go that long w/out seeing his family. It was so nice that he really put thought into why he didn't want to do that. Although the money would be phenominal. But us being w/out our Daddy and Husband wouldn't be worth it. But I am thankful that he doesn't want to be away from us. And I am thankful that he has got some work.

basement

So I got a new camera. The store that I got my camera at honored my warranty, and I got a brand new camera. So here are some picts of the basement that we are working on. It isn't quite done. We want to get some new flooring, and I have touchup paint to do. We are happy w/ it. It is so much brighter then before.

To love

I was watching TV the other day, and a question was asked whether you like to love or be loved. I have been thinking about this off and on ever since then. At first I wanted to say that I want to love. But upon further pondering, I think that I would like to be loved instead. That is my selfish nature, to get what I can get without putting much effort into it. And while I like being loved, I feel bad that that is how I am. I feel like I should be unselfish and get on my high horse, like the people on this show, and say, oh, well, I like to love. I think that if most people are very honest they will say that they want to be loved rather then to love someone. Now I must admit loving someone has its blessings. I love the fact that I can love my husband and he is open to my love and he accepts it. I think that I have thought a lot about this b/c I believe that love is not a feeling. Love is a daily choice to commit to this person, to choose to put your focus and adoration on this person. Let's face it, it is very hard to have a committed, loving relationship just based on feelings, choice has to come into play on this. I don't believe that you can "fall out of love" w/ someone. You CHOOSE not to love them. I think it would brake my heart if hubby told me that he fell out of love w/ me. What he is really telling me is that I chose not to love you anymore. You are not worth my love. And that would kill me. So w/ all that being said, I am going to try hard to want to love. To work harder at making his life easier, to show him more that I love him.