WoW

WoW.

My head is still kinda trying to keep up with all that has happened.

You see, We have felt for quite a while now that God was doing something in our lives. We have waited, we have sought God's face, we have waited, we have walked through possible doors, we have waited, we have sought counsel, we have waited, we have prayed, and we have waited. And in the midst of all that, I have c.r.i.e.d. if you know me, well....yeah, you would know. ;)

We have wondered what God is doing. We have wondered where He was leading us. If He was moving us or if He wanted us to stay.

We have struggled this year to make the kids school payments. We knew that if God wanted to keep the kids at school, then He would provide.

We have never been comfortable with sending the kids to the public school here in town. We still aren't thrilled.

But....well, then God.....

We were absolutely adamant that Maddie would NOT go to the middle school. That school is s.c.a.r.y. and I couldn't fathom pulling my kids from the comfort of the christian school bubble and "throw them to the devil himself." 

But....well, then God....

Through a series of trying to make many different doors open, and trying many different things, and trying to wrack our brains for every possible opportunity, we knew that those possibilities weren't of God and every one of those doors were shut.

But....well, then God....

.......kinda opened a different door. A door that I didn't even know about. A door finally seemed like a possibility.

I was introduced to a performing arts program through the public school. It is audition based, and it is new, and it is scary for this little Ol momma.  In that big, scary, wild, probably even dangerous middle school. This little program is in a protected little bubble in the public school.

But....well, then God.

We were told, that yes, she could audition, and we knew that day, that YES!! They wanted Maddie.

All of a sudden, everything that we have wondered and everything.....well....became really very real.

When God moved, He moved fast.

I was frozen with fear.

I wanted to walk away. I wanted to stay in the comfort of everything that I had known, in everything the kids had known. I wanted to stay in the safety of......the comfortable. I actually really wanted to run.

All last night I struggled. I just knew that we had made the wrong decision. I knew that we had heard wrong.

But....well, then God.

God reminded me of Joshua. God told Joshua 4 times in Joshua chapter 1 to be strong and very courageous. Joshua was facing leading the Israelites into Canaan. He had to be strong and very courageous. God told Joshua that He would never leave him or forsake him. God told Joshua to get ready. God was moving Joshua.

Today, I was facing leading my children into a new school. I doubted and I cried, and I feared.

But God wanted me to be strong and courageous.

What peace God gave me. How he calmed his child. How I am so very thankful.

Courage....

courage is not the absence of fear, it is the willingness to move forward in spite of it.

courage is the attitude of facing....anything recognized as dangerous, difficult or painful instead of withdrawing from it.

I needed courage. And courage is what God gave me.

Joshua 1:16 ~ Then they answered Joshua, whatever you have commanded us we will do, and wherever you send us we will go.

This morning, before the busyness of my day began, I told God, that whatever he commands us we will do and wherever He sends us we will go.

And my soul knew that He would go before us.

So with my fear quenched, and a resolve in my heart we "faced the devil"

I was able to stay with Maddie for a little bit this morning. I was able to help her get her locker set up, and talk to the school nurse, and walk her to her 1st class.

And then....well, God.

Then God just wowed me.

Because He can.

The whole class turned to Maddie and all of them talked at once welcoming her to the school and telling her how excited they were to see her and just showing her kindness. Which is awesome in and of itself.

But then, her teacher came to me, and looked me in the eye, and said...

don't be afraid, I've got this.

I'll watch out for her.

I graduated from North Love.

And I love Jesus.

W.O.W.

Overwhelmed.

Yes, I was the crazy mother who with tears in my eyes, hugged this teacher I didn't even know.

This kindred spirit.

I walked out of that school with proof that we were where we were supposed to be. That although I don't understand the why of it all, I don't need to. But I have faith that we are where we are supposed to be.

WoW

I spent the rest of the day getting Nathan set up at his school (where I feel much more comfortable with) He met with his teacher and he knows where his classroom is. And he is excited that his neighbor boy friend is in his class. His 1st day is tomorrow.

He is nervous, and he is sad about leaving what he knows. About leaving his friends. But I think a little excitement is growing in him.

If you think about him tomorrow say a little prayer for him.

When you ask God, to take your box of what you know of Him, and shake it upside down, do not be surprised when he does it.