Our Puppy

Today is a sad day. I knew that this would be hard for me, and I am really dreading today. Today, my puppy (Cupcake) is getting fixed. I know that this needs to be done. We do not want more puppies. And I know that there are health reasons in getting them fixed. But I have fallen so much in love w/ this dog, it is unreal. I have never had a dog before, and I was worried that once we got a dog, the newness would wear off quick and I would resent getting her. But that has not been the case. I have never regretted getting her. She has been a joy to our family, and a very welcome addition. So to know that she is scared and going to be hurt and in pain, really tears at my heart. When we dropped her off, they put their leash in her, and you could tell that she was very frightened. SHe was fighting going w/ them for all that she was worth. She put her little butt down and they had to drag her away. I took my kids w/ me, and I had tears in my eyes, and my #1 was crying. She did NOT want to leave Cupcake there. And neither did I. So I face today, sad and missing my little puppy. I have 2 sick kids today, that are owly. I have a hubby that keeps calling me to ask me whether or not I have started painting, (our basement project hasa been sitting these past 2 days w/ no work being done on it, and the stress in my head about it is doubling as the days go by) and I have a very high, scary mountain in my laundry room staring me down. ANd my FIL is having an angiogram and possibly looking at the possibility of open heart surgery. So today I need distraction. ANy takers?!