Lessons

Yes, I am still alive.

No, I don't want to look back and realize how long it's been since I posted. I will get depressed.

There are various reasons why I haven't posted in so long.

It's not for lack of things to say.

It's not for lack of incentive.

I have been in a place.... not a physical place... but a.... a place, that took me so far out of my comfort zone. Out of my element. That I think it took me a while to feel..... "normal," more like myself again.

I did what I thought I was supposed to do. Followed a path that seemed so perfect on the outside.

And I think I really was supposed to do it.

Because it taught me so much about who I am and about what I want.... or don't want.... out of this life.

It taught me a lot about God.

About how He really is with us each and every day.

About how He does care about us.

About how He does lead us and protect us against those who really want to harm us.

It taught me that sometimes.... people really aren't nice. That sometimes.... people seem so innocent, yet are wolves.... desperately trying to harm us.

It taught me to be stronger.

To stand up for myself.

To know how I want to be treated,

About how I want to treat others.

It taught me about.... INTEGRITY.

And CHARACTER ~ about doing what is right... when no one is looking.

It taught me that it is ok to walk away. That sometimes that's the best thing you can do.

It taught me that God knows my heart, and cares about me.

That he loves me desperately.

That He....always leads.

It taught me to trust him and follow... even when it just. doesn't. make. sense.

I am eternally GrAtEfUl for these lessons.

I can't say that I would walk through it again.

But on this side, I can see the reasons for it so much clearer.

I don't know what you are facing today.

But know that God has a reason for it.

He will turn ashes into beauty.

He will take what seems to be falling apart and hopeless and make it into something that will glorify and honor him. And you will be amazed.

You will see the absolute.... goodness.... of God. Because that is what he is.

God is just so wonderfully good.