The cleanness of my hands

Psalm 18-21-24
For I have kept the ways of the LORD, and have not wickedly departed from my God.
For all his judgments were before me, and I did not put away his statutes from me.
I was also upright before him, and I kept myself from mine iniquity.
Therefore hath the LORD recompensed me according to my righteousness, according to the cleanness of my hands in his eyesight.

These verses hit me so hard this morning.

Every single day I try so hard to please my God. To honor and glorify, and obey HIM.

But don't we all have those secret sins? Those things we KNOW we shouldn't do but are so hard for us to give up.

When you break it down, it just comes to disobedience. You wanting your will above what God has for you.

Maybe your sin isn't necessarily even "WRONG" in man's eyes, but you know that God doesn't want you to do it, and so therefore it is WRONG in the eyes of God.

And quite frankly, isn't that all we have to worry about?

Pleasing God and not man?

Vs. 23 ~ I was also upright before him, and I kept myself from mine iniquity.

WOW!!!

Its a hard thing to say....I am upright before him, and have kept myself from my sin.

In vs 24 it talks about the cleanness of my hands.

When I think about the cleanness of my hands I think about lifting my open hands to God. Showing him that I am nothing without him, that I want to give him ALL.

But for those with that "secret" sin, it is very hard to know that your hands are clean before God and to KEEP our hands clean. Especially when you have to battle DAILY to give up that sin. Sometimes those sins are ever before us.

Before you get all pious and start judging me and wondering oh my...what has she done....think about your own life. What is it that you are struggling with to hand over to God, and to tell him to just take this issue, it's yours God.... I want better for my life. I want to be able to walk righteously before you.

That is my prayer. It is my desire to have clean hands. To be able to lift up my hands to God and be able to say I have kept myself from my iniquity.