My Mountain

On Monday, the lady who hit us had a court date. So Brad, Beth, Hunny and I all went. She was scheduled to be there at 9. We were all so curious about her. What she looked like most of all, and how she would carry herself. She looked like what I thought she would look like. Although I wasn't prepared for bright pink and yellow hair!! I was "impressed" that she had on something other then sweatpants and a white t shirt like other people were wearing to go in front of a judge!! Although the jeans and long sleeve shirt didn't impress me to much either!

Her case wasn't called till about 10:30, and it literally took less then 2 min. They just asked to move her date till March 30Th and the judge granted their request.

There are many emotions that I was fighting that day. But the biggest emotion I have been dealing with is anger. I know that people make really stupid mistakes in life. And I think that drunk driving is one of those really stupid mistakes. When you are drinking people choose to do things they normally wouldn't do sober. They put other peoples lives at stake.

I have been thinking about what I would do if I were to make a really stupid mistake like that. I would try my hardest to make it right with the family. I don't know how you could do that, but I think that some show of remorse would be better then nothing. She has shown no remorse whatsoever. And I think I am having a hard time with that. She is pleading not guilty, and she is doing whatever she can to postpone and delay all proceedings.

If I sit and think about all that she has done, and all that she caused b/c of her poor decisions, I can feel the anger rising from the pit of my belly.

But the Lord is gracious. He gives to those in need, and I am so grateful for his love and compassion. As I was reading my Bible the other morning, he gave me these verses.....

Psalm 37 :3-9~Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed. Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgement as the noonday.

I especially love these next verses..... these are what my soul needed.

Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass. Cease from anger and forsake wrath: fret not thyself in any wise to do evil. For evildoers shall be cut off: but those that wait upon the Lord, they shall inherit the earth.

I also like verse 11 that says......But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace.
And 13..... The Lord shall laugh at him: for he seeth that his day is coming.

See, although I want her to be punished, I don't have to worry about her. She is nobody to me. I don't have to sit there fret. The Lord is my avenger.

(I am still amazed when I can sit there and KNOW that the Lord is talking directly to me. )

As most of you know, we are still struggling with our vehicle situation. B/c we still owe money on our van, we aren't able to just go out and get a new one. I don't have to fret about that, the Lord knows all of that. He knew that before he allowed the accident to happen. I am so thankful that God has provided a vehicle for us to use. But it is temporary.

Matthew 21: 21-22 says ~21 Jesus answered and said unto them, Verily I say unto you, If ye have faith, and doubt not, ye shall not only do this which is done to the fig tree, but also if ye shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be thou cast into the sea; it shall be done.
22 And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.

To me, a mountain is something that is impossible. You can't move a mountain. It is impossible. But not to my God. You see, my mountain is a new vehicle, and getting the old one paid off. That is my mountain. You know what I am going to do? I am going to pray, believe and receive.